This isn't what I want. I know, you don't always have what you want in life. But, this is so not right. After Dad left, everything changed, EVERYTHING. He was always the one I turned to, and he was always the one who treated me well! I miss my Dad! :'( :'(
My life changed from was good enough to worst! I don't really wish to write this, but it hurt so bad.. I don't know what to do. I have no one to turn to!
A simple, honest mistake.. my moment has gone bad! I can't stop crying. ya Allah. How it was different back then, my Dad treated me good enough.. even I got him mad, he wouldn't hurt me this much. That's why I want him around.. he took care of me. I felt safe! and when I cried, he would ask me to stop the politeness way.
Non of that has ever happen to me since. Oh Dad, at this moment.. I just want to be with you! Staying out of this misery. At this moment too, I want to breathe my last breath! It hurts being this way, Pa. I hope, I really hope you know how I feel.
I'm so weak! Ramadhan is soon and it's puasa. They say that, during puasa.. all of the souls are out to their living family. I know Dad will soon be around here. I can't wait for Ramadhan to come. I don't know what good will help. I don't know how things will get better.
I am a good girl, I don't deserve this. What did I do to deserve this?! urgggggggghh!