Hii.
I want to make a new lay out for my blog, but unfortunately I don't know how. hahah. Yes, i'm not really good with customizing thing, i'm a sucker to be exact. ahah.
I'm excited for later! There will be a netball tournament, and i'm participating :D joined the Ranoadidas netball team. It was a last minute thing on my behalf actually. Before that, I haven't been playing with them cause of some reason. sigh. But sadly.. my cousin Didi injured her self, she broke her ankle sampai be-cement, kesian her. Kali, Didi asked me to play with them, cause they want to see me play. If they like my game, they'll put me in and if they don 't.. then, I won't be joining. Then, I played with them on last wednesday at JKR and... they like my game! :D whee. and that was the only day I got to really train for the tourny. heh. I'm happy, cause I get to be in the team with some great players and that made me feel small. ahah. but with luck, I get to learn much further. I'm sad, cause Didi can't play, she's a good player, sayang her can't play but she is part of the team and she made me in, for that I thank you, ka! I'm nervous as hell, cause of tomorrow's game. Do wish me luck! hee.
I guess, i'm the youngest of all the players in the team, not I guess, it's the fact! hah. Most of them are working already, and at first they thought saya pun sudah kerja then I told them i'm only seventeen. :) hahaha. I take that as a compliment which I get alot, I no surprised if people ever say those kind of thing to me. hahah. But what if I get old, wouldn't I look like very old? hahah. apa kata orang? "lakas tua" hahahah. But that wouldn't be the worst thing.. kan? hahahah!
So the tournament will be on Friday which is later, starts from 8am to night, I don't really know sampai what time, tapi sampai malam. At MPH (multi-purpose hall) berakas. hee.
Oh oh! I didn't attend school tadi, cause kata kelyn "jangantah sekolah". So ofcourse, i'm up with that. hehe. Then around 10am, I was sleeping kali my mom said "bangun! Bangun! Cuba kamu liat ni! Ada ular di rumah!" then I heard my mom shouting lagi, so bangun selajur. Kali the snake arah hall way, next to the toilet, belakang almari. My brother pulled almari tu kan, there it was the snake. It was an arm long, the thickness was the size of my finger, black coloured. Well, it wasn't the first time a snake entered the house but it was for a big black large scorpion! since i've lived here. It's not the scorpion that you see at the beach, it was something macam you see in movies, yang the poisonous one? It was really scary lah.
The weird thing was that, the snake and the scorpion was at the same place of hiding. So I guess, durang tu either bekawan (that would be funny! hahah) or berkelahi (which could be possible). The snake was like the poisonous one jua. It made sound lagi tu! Like, the awful scary sound. Berijap eh. Kali, datang tia lagi a cat! Not the cat that i'm scared of, but the fact that a snake might bite the cat. hahh. My mom asked my aunty to baca-baca, but then my aunty ni sakit kaki tia jua.. so if she reads then the snake moved it would be hard for her to escape. hahaha.
Then the maid next door burnt the scorpion with burning stick and the indon yang bekerja arah sewage killed the snake by smashing it's head with a stick. Berigali tia jua. heeh. So people selamat, alhamdulillah. Though mom didn't want it to be killed, ia suruh keluar kan saja but they killed jua, so me and my mom baca ayat Qursi, and my mom add doa Tolak Bala. Cause who knows, it might be something. Pasal, lain bah.. an unsual scorpion with a snake, inside the house? Subhanallah. So, alhamdulillah no one was hurt.
I'm sleeping next to Weeza, my niece, in Kelyn's room. Besar snore si Weeza. ahah.
Okay, that's all for thursday. hee. I gotta go to sleep, I need my sleep for later's game and I need to wake up as early as 6. So bye.


This isn't what I want. I know, you don't always have what you want in life. But, this is so not right. After Dad left, everything changed, EVERYTHING. He was always the one I turned to, and he was always the one who treated me well! I miss my Dad! :'( :'(
My life changed from was good enough to worst! I don't really wish to write this, but it hurt so bad.. I don't know what to do. I have no one to turn to!
A simple, honest mistake.. my moment has gone bad! I can't stop crying. ya Allah. How it was different back then, my Dad treated me good enough.. even I got him mad, he wouldn't hurt me this much. That's why I want him around.. he took care of me. I felt safe! and when I cried, he would ask me to stop the politeness way.
Non of that has ever happen to me since. Oh Dad, at this moment.. I just want to be with you! Staying out of this misery. At this moment too, I want to breathe my last breath! It hurts being this way, Pa. I hope, I really hope you know how I feel.
I'm so weak! Ramadhan is soon and it's puasa. They say that, during puasa.. all of the souls are out to their living family. I know Dad will soon be around here. I can't wait for Ramadhan to come. I don't know what good will help. I don't know how things will get better.
I am a good girl, I don't deserve this. What did I do to deserve this?! urgggggggghh!


Hiii. I thought my sunday would've been relaxing but no, it didn't happened the way I want my sunday to be, which is SLEEPING! Though I haven't been to school for two even days due to my sickness, terrible headache and my throat that was killing me! But na-uh. I was enjoying my sleep until I heard the mother of mine said.. "Na, ikut panggilan? Ikut tah, bangun!" I didn't want to argue with her, so I forced myself to get my ass off from bed and got ready for the wedding. I was really tired. Because, on saturday night we had Malam beTahlil for our relatives that has kembali ke rahmatullah.
As I were saying, me, Kelyn and mother went to the wedding. The day was burning! and I meant, panas! after that we had to send mother to another wedding which me and Kelyn didn't went to pasal inda lagi mau bepanas. hahah. We went to JPMC gymnasium instead, for a swim, sauna and jaccuzzi (sp?) it went great.
Went home around 5pm. Spent my time on dvds until I received a text from ka Didi inviting me to play netball, so I went to padang kebajikan with her, played for two hours from eight to ten. My badan sakit right now, since batah sudah inda main. But it was fun. hee.
Went home, took a shower and now posting this crap. hahah.
Oh! My Qualifying Exam sudah habis. Results' not "resulted" yet. I don't want to talk about this much, lets just say, I have improved a bit, well atleast.
F.R.I.E.N.D.S is on my dvd now, it's 01 30. I know this post is deadly boring, it's crap and a post of a total messyness and I don't know what to do. Oh sleep! Bah, I go now. Night! dawn? morning? blaaaargh. Bye! hee.